I have come that you might have life, and have it more abundantly.
Not only does that apply to abundant life after death, but in this eartly life as well! Not yesterday and not tomorrow...but now!
There's been something that I've been really asking God to give me an answer to lately...and I don't feel like He's given me a "black & white" answer in this area in my life. He's done that before...like with my college decision, going to Northern Africa last year, Camp LaVida, & other major decisions. I do consider this a major decision though, and I know He hears me and that He knows my heart and my mind and what's going on with this area. But yet, He hasn't given me a clear path to take. It's kind of been a half-answer if that makes sense. I've heard people say that prayer can be answered in 3 ways:
YES
NO
WAIT
Alright...that certainly carries a lot of validitiy to it. But also one of the sermons from Choir Tour comes back to me...it actually involves Six Flags, but the analogy here is that there are other ways that God can answer:
YES
NO
I'M LEAVING IT UP TO YOU
So because it hasn't been YES or NO, it's got to be WAIT or I'M LEAVING IT UP TO YOU. God's certainly taught me a lot about patience in this area, but for some reason that hasn't been coming up as much lately. Not by any means have I mastered that, especially in this area of my life, but I don't know if God is leaving it up to me. It's ultimately my choice...but I do want to honor the Lord, My Jesus, with this decision! I don't want to get involved in something that won't bring Him complete glory and honor in my life and in the lives of others. He's already given me so much in this area...and I want to praise Him with how I handle all of this. Worship is a lifestyle, afterall.
I guess one thing God keeps bringing me back to is Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths.
Trust, lean not, acknowledge...
and then He will direct you.
Oversimplified in my mind, maybe. But at the same time, I do trust God with this part of me. I'm trying not to lean on my own understanding and to depend on my heart and mind more than I am Him, and I certainly have made efforts to acknowledge that I know that He has a plan and that He is in control of all of this! So now...He is directing...like a watercourse...
Lord, guide my heart and my mind. Help me to see a bigger picture as I seek your will in all areas of my life, especially one as important as this. I know it will come down to my decision, but I am depending on your direction to help me make a choice, even if short-term, that will honor you in every aspect and dimension. I love you Jesus. You've been so good to me. Thank you that you understand it all, even when I don't...especially when I don't! *I am not skilled to understand, What God has willed what God has planned.*
Seeking Your direction, Lord,
Amanda Lauren
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