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So today definitely threw me for a loop.

First of all, it was wonderful to have my brother down here for a couple of hours. We ate lunch together (yay!) and were able to talk for a little while, while also enjoying humourous things along the way (like a girl stomping acorns).

This afternoon, though, I was just mad. Or hurt might be the better term really.
Sad? I don't know. Whatever it was, there are still remnants left. But the initial "feeling" is gone. What is left now is the extreme concern for a friend.



There are just some things that get you down, and you can't do anything about it. That picture (up there)...sometimes you just want to quit, turn in your bat, ball, and glove, and sit on the sidelines.

Here's what I want to tell my friend:

Why follow your heart when you can follow the ONE who made your heart and knows it better than you do?

That may seem narrowminded or whatever. Yet, God is so real, and He has proven Himself over and over again to me, and it hurts when someone doens't love my Jesus. If that sounds selfish, please accept my apologies. God is bigger than the air I breathe, this world we'll leave, and God will save the day, and all will say MY GLORIOUS. I admit that there are those "prone to wander" moments, but even in those doubtful, yet not hopeless, moments, we have to turn to him with the rag of a tapestry that we can only hope to be. "Oh to grace how great a debtor..." but yet "bind my heart Lord..."

God has just renewed my sense of the lost today. Again. Transfixed before my eyes is the Christ, my best friend, my dad, my Saviour, and the only person to accept me for all that I am not...

I still am unable to fathom the fact that His wounds have healed me. "By His wounds we are healed," (1 Peter 2:24-25). For me, I am so unworthy! But yet, He calls us into His arms...we want the embrace. But I guess some see the attractive, yet snarly false and unlasting embraces of this world that are so enticing...and run the other way. How deep the Father's love for us truly is. Please God, reveal yourself to my friend...my friends that have no idea who you really are. You are not a sidebar...an option...or an ornament or nice addition to the ensemble. You are our whole being...all we are is in you. Without you we are nothing...

You're everything to me...more than a story.
More than words on a page of history...

ALH